I Want To Feel Fulfilled.

by - 8/26/2016

“The person who lives life fully, glowing with life’s energy, is the person who lives a successful life.” - Daisaku Ikeda

When I was in high school, I opted to take a psychology class over the regular history class, and it was the best decision I had ever made. I've never taken another psychology course since, but those lessons have stuck with me, even if I can't remember everything to a tee.

What I did learn in that class is that not everyone thinks the same, and I think that stands true even more so nowadays then it did to me then. Everybody wants different things from life, but I think that the one thing that we all have in common is a desire to feel happy and loved. And if not, what are you really searching for?

Basically, there's a reason why we want the things we want. The only difference is if we know why or not. I don't want to make this into a super sappy post or something more spiritual than I mean it to be (though there's nothing wrong with that), I've just really been looking at the future more and more and have realized that I should have been working for different things since high school so I would be more prepared and happy now.

Understanding how I feel has been the hardest part for me. I've been in a relationship with my SO for almost 7 years now. Crazy! But until recently, I don't think I've fully comprehended what my life would be like without him. We've had a lot of ups and downs but I think we've finally found a flow to our communication and that is so relieving that you probably wouldn't know the weight that's been lifted.

I've also just been spending more time by myself. Yoga and meditation is actually something I do once a week. Usually on the weekends in the mornings when I have the time. I never thought meditation was something that would help me, but with my anxiety, I needed something to help me cope and redirect all that negative energy. Believe it or not, this works and you should give it a try if you're running out of options!

Feeling fulfilled, for me, isn't about having all the material things in life that we think that we need, (though having a roof over my head and a car to get to work is incredibly helpful), it's more about discovering who I am as a person and realizing that the more mistakes I make, the more prepared I'm making myself for the future. I'll get that house one day, but for now, I'm happy knowing that I'm working on me. It's an amazing feeling, knowing that you can put yourself back together after falling apart.

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