Turtles All the Way Down | ❄Blogmas❄

"But the really scary thing is not turning and turning in the widening gyre; it's turning and turning in the tightening gyre."

Hello, my dear, dear friends. It's been such a long time since I've been able to sit down and write out a book post. To be honest, I've been in kind of a book funk the last month and a half. It's super awful, but it happens. I can't say that this book swooped in and rescued me, but John Green did give me some kind of life back with his newest release.

I was immediately intrigued with the plot of this book. Any book that delves into mental illness/anxiety is something that I want to read. And all the better if it's directed at teens. However, I found that I got lost within the side plot, wondering why it was even there.

Green does a wonderful job with the anxiety side of things. How he describes Aza's spiraling thoughts, her habits, her constant worries was something akin to perfection. Throughout the book I found myself relating in some parts and also finding it hard to swallow that there are people out there that feel the way Aza does. And there is nothing you can really do, aside from being there for them when they need you.

"You seem locked inside your mind, and I can't know what's going on in there, and it scares me."
"I'm fine. Really."
"But you're not."
"Mom, tell me what to say. Seriously. Just... tell me what words to say to make you calm down about it."
"I don't want to calm down. I want you to stop being in pain."
"Well, that's not how it works, okay?"

The subplot of the missing billionaire seems to only serve one purpose; and that is to bring Aza to Davis, her old childhood friend. When they reunite, there is really nothing that says they had ever stopped talking. They seem to pick up quite easily, actually. And this is kind of where I found myself huffing and puffing. If you've read John Green before, then you know that when he puts two teens together, they suddenly start speaking in philosophical quotes and falling in love under the stars while searching for meteors and the meaning of life.

And that's not to say that teens don't speak like that sometimes and are less intelligent. There are teens out there that are incredibly smart, but these two talk like no one I've ever heard before. They did have some discussions with certain lines that really stuck with me. When talking about adults and how they believe so strongly in one thing, example God, that it's the right thing. The correct thing. And the response was "The parasite believes itself to be the host." In context, it's a very strong line.

If you went into this thinking that turtles were going to be a main symbol/part of the book, you were wrong. I was wrong. And I'm pretty disappointed with it. There is a small mention of one turtle in the beginning and then they aren't mentioned again until practically the end of the book. In a discussion about a woman who is 'challenging' her professor claiming that the earth is a flat plane resting on the back of a giant turtle.

"Well, but if that's so, what is the giant turtle standing upon?"
"It is standing upon the shell of another giant turtle."
"Well, then what is that turtle standing upon?"
"Sir, you don't understand. It's turtles all the way down."
In the end, I found this to be a book with a good eye opening example of anxiety and how one person deals with it. Everything else is just turtles.