I've ditched the glasses!

Whenever I thought about getting Lasik, I cringed at the idea. I thought about all the horror stories I've ever read about the surgery and decided right then and there that I would never risk getting a surgery that could possibly leave me blind for the rest of my life. I would deal with the glasses and contacts, thank you very much.

Fast forward a few years and, surprise!, my eyes decide that they don't like the material contacts are made out of. Leaving me with no choice but to wear glasses full time. Now if you're like me and have had to wear glasses for most of your young life, you know how annoying it could be. But I dealt with it because getting surgery just wasn't the one for me. And then comes Covid-19. Mask requirements. Foggy lenses every time you breathed. Let's take another look at Lasik.

This isn't something that I went into with zero research and I did my best to stay away from all the stories of surgeries that had gone wrong for some others. Permanent vision loss, dry eyes so bad that no amount of eye drops could help, etc. I was in this for the facts and let's face it, Lasik has turned twenty-nine years old in 2020, so there's been so much room for improvement. My doctor went over all the risks with me and I was confident enough with them that going through with it didn't seem like such a big deal anymore. I got a lot of my information from this Wikipedia article, if you want to take a peak.

Of course my anxiety had other things to say about that so every moment leading up to the surgery was dreadful. I had to take a medicated drop four times a day the day before my surgery. The day of, they gave me both numbing drops twice and some antibacterial drops, also twice. And a Valium, to calm me the heck down. They were also very kind and made me a stress ball type thing out of a medical glove stuffed with paper towels. Getting this surgery done with a face mask on wasn't actually as bad as I thought it would be. The doctor and assistants were all very friendly and patient with me, knowing how nervous I was.

Getting into it, they have you lay down on a bed that looks quite similar to ones that a chiropractor or a massage therapist might have, though not as comfortable and the hole where the head should have was padded. They put the laser over your face and honestly, the worst part of the whole thing was the suction! There was no pain, but a lot of pressure. It's not a comfortable surgery but thankfully it only lasts about fifteen minutes and boom! I was walking out the door with brand new eyes. Though I couldn't enjoy it right away as my eyes were watering like no one's business. And it felt like there was something wedged in there but I wasn't allowed to rub them.

All in all, I think the most important thing you need to do is find a good surgeon that you're confident and comfortable with. I was lucky to find the one I did. Do your research, but don't let it scare you! It was scary but honestly so so worth it.

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"Why aren't I there yet?"

I don't know if my brain is in quarantine overdrive, but I've been thinking a lot about life lately. The way the world is right now has forced me to look at where I am in life and where others are. And that's not really a good thing. It hasn't been productive for my mental health.

In my last post I mentioned that my family and I were struggling with a lot of personal issues. Some very serious ones. We still are. But while we are managing, I've come to realize that there are people we are connected too that are living their own lives and are unknowingly damaging the mental health of ourselves. It's forced us to take a step back and cut them out of our lives for that reason. It really sucks knowing that some people in your life aren't really in your life at all. You reach out a hand and it's slapped away or just ignored. Focusing on us and living for us is really important right now. Maybe more than ever.

This has been short and it's been a mess, but I really just needed to write something. I think putting it all down also helps to remind me that I don't have to live my life in the same order as someone else. I can do things in my own time, when it's right for me, not because someone else is expecting me to do or be somewhere. Maybe this will be a good reminder to anyone reading this who has felt the same. Who has been looking at other lives and wondering, Why aren't I there yet? Live your life in your own time. Especially right now social media can be so damaging to people. I've seen some posts on Instagram of people living the best lives while in quarantine and it's made me feel less productive and less enthusiastic about myself. It's a vicious and nasty cycle and it's also been surprising because I've always just done my own thing. I've never worried about how my life compared to someone else's because I've always had what I needed. I still do. But the pressure to buy a house, have a baby, do this, do that, have been multiplied by the millions.

I know I'm not the only one to have ever felt this way. And even talking about it on here makes me feel vulnerable. But I'm hoping that this is something that will help me overcome all of the negativity I've been feeling. I'm planning on cutting back on social media and turning my focus to better things. I'm hoping you all have been safe and healthy during this weird and rough time. Please reach out if you've been feeling the same.

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"When we got married I promised myself I wouldn't go running to Momma with every little thing."

My first book review! In such a long time! Wowza!

I am AMAZED that this is happening right now. 2019 has taken me to hell and back, so blogging about the books I've been reading hasn't really been a thing. So sitting down to write this about a book that pretty much took me by surprise feels so so good.

Meg & Jo, a retelling of Little Women focusing on the lives of the two older sisters. I need to mention now that I haven't read the original Little Women. At least, I don't remember if I did or not. I know what it's about, obviously, and know a little bit about what happens. Also, when I was in Girl Scouts, we visited the family home of Louisa May Alcott, the author, and I remember going into the barn where the sisters would put on their plays and just thought about what a different world it was.

Maybe I should have read the original before jumping into a retelling... but oh well!

I can't even explain to you how quickly I read through this book. I feel like I've been in a slump for a little while and this seemed to get me right through it. For a moment, at least.

First things first, Meg and John are married. With twins. CUTE. But Meg is trying to be super mom and do everything on her own. And John is trying to let her have her way but help as well. So there's a little tug of war there.

Jo is working in New York in a restaurant, while doing some food blogging on the side. Her boss, Eric, AKA hunkasaurus, isn't fond of food bloggers. So this relationship gets a little muddled in the middle, as you can imagine. I had A LOT of anxiety over this plot line, as Trey kept coming in and out and really making me dislike his character.

The sister dynamic in this retelling is much of the same, which I was relieved about, as I know that's an important aspect of the original. Family was a big deal in this book, so it was surprising how some of the plot lines went, but I'll leave that up to you to find out what I mean.

As most of my reviews go, I'm going to stop here before I give away too much. Long story short, I really enjoyed this retelling, and I can't wait for the second one to come out. And now on to read the original before the die hards have my head.

Oh, and Happy New Year!

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I've ditched the glasses!

"Why aren't I there yet?"

"My family and I have been healing. Intensely."

"All right. No taking it personally. And no holding back... Let the games begin."

"When we got married I promised myself I wouldn't go running to Momma with every little thing."

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